Well, I am calm and positive, alongside knackered
I have decided that it's not possible to avoid my work responsibilities any longer, which means letting go of this deadline on Thursday after all. Because I've been able to more or less choose when I do each module of my course (because I have so many exemptions), I first went to the lessons for this module in 2013-14. I never got anywhere at all with the research though, as I wasn't even on a work placement yet at that time. The year after, I had the work placement from hell and my supervisor sabotaged the study before I wrote more than two introductory paragraphs to the report itself.
This year, I have a plan, have read the literature, created, scrapped, recreated, rescrapped and recreated my thesis questions, and tested out loads of 'learning interventions' in class. My biggest difficulty was that I did things a bit in the wrong order due to time constraints and being too much of a last minute person. I couldn't bear/manage the headf^ck this time of making the things I had read fit the interventions which I had thought up before reading up enough. Cue many many hours sitting in front of a laptop and not producing the words. I could have gone through the motions and possibly got a pass, but been embarrassed to hand it in. Now the crucial thing is to get the literature search finally written up this weekend, then TWEAK the interventions so they DO fit the theory, redo them, get proper feedback on them, and NOT be in ANY danger of missing the "retake" deadline in January.
Wish me luck! It WILL happen! I did manage this *once* before, finishing something two weeks after the first deadline and technically handing it in "early".