I am married, have been for nearly 9 years to a wonderful man. I am a lesbian, I know this, he knows this I only dated women before him, we have a young son who passed away as a baby and we have been unable to carry another child. Besides sexually he is everything I want. I was seeing women casually and he was aware.
I met someone about 4 months ago, we have seen each other on and off she told me pretty quickly she loved me and wanted to be with me, I explained I wasn't leaving my husband, I wanted more kids. She said she would stand by me regardless and wanted to be with me no matter what this caused me a lot of confusion.
Since I have began I think to develop feelings, I am so confused because I have no real idea we spend time together but we havent dated or been together really so it is hard to tell.
I have no support or anyone to talk to. I have no family or place to go. I don't want to jump from one thing to another, I keep thinking how I would like to date her and see how it goes but I don't really have this choice due to the fact I have nowhere to go if I left my husband and I don't know if I want to leave him. I just feel selfish and awful
She has told me she is happy with how things are, seeing me regardless so really I guess this isn't an issue but it is becoming an issue for me. I don't want to do this, my husband knew I was with women but there were no feelings there.
I feel like everyone will judge me if I try to talk to them about it