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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #60 on: Sep 28, 2016, 03:20:51 PM »
^ Great poem, scouser.

It sounds a bit similar to a situation I'm in  :-\

Hope things feel better for you soon.

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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #61 on: Sep 28, 2016, 04:09:31 PM »
Thank you, sorry to hear that, just can't sleep at night lately with stuff running through my mind, the 'why's', where-fors', etc...
It helps a little to write it down.
Hope your situation improves soon, best wishes!  :)
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #62 on: Sep 29, 2016, 10:14:00 AM »
^ Me too sometimes. It's difficult when someone's behaviour doesnt make any consistent sense and tends to play on your mind trying to work it out.

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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #63 on: Sep 30, 2016, 11:57:56 AM »
Very true, you too. X :)
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #64 on: Jan 25, 2017, 03:54:38 AM »
''Your Fired!''

There is a man we call Trump, he has mad hair and a massive rump,
An orange face, and yellow hair, he ain't that smart to be really fair!
He rants and raves like he's still in the caves, with misogyny and hate, and rhetoric that's fake!
 Spewing out lies, and shouting the odds, he took advantage of those silly sods,
Who voted him in to make them all rich, now they are just his little bitch,

For our Donald has truly played a blinder! You couldn't make it up, so to be kinder,
We'll all sit and watch whilst his family rule, cos deep down inside our' Donalds no fool,
His hand is a quivering into the night, with his finger on that trigger it's a terrible sight!

To think that this guy was just on the T.V. with his orders and tasks for all to see,
'Your fired'', and ''Your fired! ''
With gusto he would bellow,
We now wish we had the chance to fire this fellow!

Alas it's too late, our chance has elapsed, the icon of towers has got there with gasps!

Yes it's the big house in white, with the soldiers outside, Mr. Trump is the man there that now resides!

For four years or maybe eight, we know now it's too late,
to get him out and back where he fits, yes, I know what your thinking....

THIS SUCKS, IT'S THE PITS,
And it sure is the truth he gets on my t$$s!!😕
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #65 on: Jan 26, 2017, 10:42:29 PM »
''Happiness!''

How do we measure happiness, how can we all discover?
Who we meet, who we love and hate, our sister or our brothers.
Why is it so that so many of us do, the bad and sad, to me and to you?
To find love, to dismiss hate, continuing on for a compatible mate.

We walk through life overcoming strife, fighting fear, wiping tears,
Smiling through hiding the pain, pretending all is well, we're not insane,
''Honestly I'm fine, don't worry about me, I'll succeed, just wait and see!''
We say this with conviction, so clear with our diction, never letting it show, what we really know.
The deep sadness and hurt the fear and worry, of time running out for us in a hurry!
Not getting any younger, seeing those lines filling my face, accepting old age is hard to do with any grace!

I have found my happiness still, no matter how old I get, I just haven't managed to contain it, at least not yet!

My children fill my cup, my family do too, friends, neighbours, but theyr'e not you!
Happiness has come, yes this I must acknowledge, it smiles through the trees, and sings in the foliage,
In this beautiful place I wonder all around, trying to drink in the peacefulness Iv'e found.
I see it everywhere now, sometimes I can't believe, where I found the strength to ever leave.
To travel here for you, to wait and make a home, never believing I'd be alone.

Happiness to some of us would be living here, happiness to others is living without fear.
Happiness to me, is all I am, and see, the love received from children, friends and family.
But to be really happy, is to be really free, and my happiness will only ever be completed, when your here with me.

So yes, I know I must address, the facts the possibility, that perhaps that may never be reality for me.
So instead of moaning on, and crying myself to sleep, I shall embrace my new found love, it's here, alone, and deep,
the fields, the streams, the dales and hills,
enabling my strength to reduce my pills.

ALL is not lost, whatever the cost,
hearing my children's laughter, shall sustain me ever after!
Yet still, I wait, I hope, I look, I need,
YOU.
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #66 on: Feb 02, 2017, 05:06:16 AM »
My daughter Kate!

My daughter Kate, I sit here late, wondering why you've so much hate...
Inside your soul for me it seems, all our love, hopes and dreams,
Have all but gone, thev'e dissipated, maybe I should not have waited,
To tell you how, within my heart, I loved you right from the start!

When you were born and eyes met eyes, your beauty and smile made life worthwhile,
Although a father was not to be had, never around for you to call 'dad'!
I tried and tried, with all my heart, to give you love right from the start!

A struggle for you, I know it was true, but God my love would see us through!
Well so I thought, as time went on, you grew so strong, my fears were gone,
But now your there, and I am here, bad times have come, my greatest fear,
You have such hate within your heart, for my mistakes have torn us apart!

Too much time I gave away, to dreams and hopes of love for me,
When instead I should have made you my priority!

So Katie love, if your reading this, my beautiful little Moroccan princess,
Please, oh please find it in your heart,
 to forgive your selfish mum for letting us part,
focussing too much on my goal, trying to make myself feel whole,
You are my daughter, I gave you life, accepting that I would sacrifice,
But always remember my Katie, my child, I will love you forever, and ever, with pride!
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #67 on: Feb 15, 2017, 12:15:21 AM »
Roses are red, violets are blue,
I suppose I'm still in love with you,
Even though your not here, and still haven't rang,
I remember still how my heart sang,
When first love we made upon my bed,
'' I'm keeping you!'', out loud I said!
So roses are red, and violets still blue,
A deep sadness inside, I still feel it too,
I know you do the same, your heart shall remain,
Always and forever for me such a shame! :'(
Not so happy a Valentine eh? X
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #68 on: May 05, 2017, 11:07:37 PM »
''Time moves on...''

Time moves on, yes it is true, for strangers, family, for me and for you.
I'm here are you, sometimes it feels true,
Love still strong, it's seeing us through!

I still can't believe how my life has changed, I sit here sometimes and feel I'm deranged,
Never did I ever, believe it come true, that I would be living in peace with you!
My lover, my life, and very soon my wife,
Your endurance, your strength, have all sacrificed!

We live now in happiness in love and with truth,
Exploring our aging, recalling our youth!
But what the hell, what do we care, let them all stop, talk and stare,
I don't give a damn I won't shed a tear, no more will I feel that immeasurable fear.

We're in love, we're here , you're near, I'm happy, and that's all...my imagination allows me now... :'(
X
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #69 on: May 19, 2017, 12:52:13 AM »
'Strength!''

What do we call strength?
For whom would we walk to any length?
How do we each measure, love for leisure?
A conquest made, an attempt or endeavour?

Strength to try, is harder than success,
for trying and failing can lead to a mess,
Attaining the goal leaves us with pride where as failure is always less easier to hide!

Strength of character, strength in repose, someone's treasure, other's thorn on a rose.
Strength can be viable, sometimes it can work, sometimes it only sends us berserk,
For with strength comes responsibility to always maintain,
the facade of being strong that others may Fein.

They say what doesn't kill ya makes you stronger, I don't believe that any longer,
Cos I'm still alive and I know that I'm weak, or maybe it's just my stubborn streak,
that refuses to give any credit to my strength or self sufficiency,
 for without you near, or here with me, there is no sense or sensibility!

Just weakness, and a failure of my humanity, a failure to feel, to love or ever feel strong,
And the sad thing is...that doesn't feel wrong.
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #70 on: May 22, 2017, 04:04:54 PM »
'Uplifted!'

I'm uplifted today, I feel so much lighter,
no moaning or dwelling  for me anymore, I'm a fighter!

Living here has made me realise that there is so much more than just wishing to look in your eyes,

I can be happy with just my kids, my cats and my dog, there's really no need to go the whole hog,

I can cope, I'm no dope, I can survive through difficult times,
Reflecting on all my past mistakes and now feeling I'm awake,

Has proven to me that all I need to be,
Is happy inside, no need for pride, just getting on with my life be nobody's wife,

Is just how I like it, I'm not looking no more,
 not waiting for you to walk through my door!

There's too much right here I need to explore, too much now for me to live for!

My life has been hard I admit I have suffered,
sadness and pain with hate I have buffered,

The feelings of loss, of regret and temptation,
Only resulted in my redemption,

So strive and fight is what I still do best,
Passing each unobtainable test.

I love you you know that, and always shall do, for me there will never be another 'you'!

I miss you, I want you, I need you too, I still pray each night you feel that way too!

But proof has not come, and your still not here, so lead my life I will without any fear.

Fate is what I believe and always will do, if I am meant to be with you,
So meandering on my hopeful way is what I continue to do,
 if it happens then great, I would love it to come true,

My dream of living alone with you, but I won't hold my breath, or hesitate,
if happiness comes I won't wait,
instead to grab it so tightl
how ever late!

Whoever it is, wherever it be, I still need love to allow me to be,
A good woman, a great friend, forever in love, right to the end,

However deep down inside my heart, still wishing we weren't apart,
I'm hoping and needing for it to be you, to be in my life and continue to do,
love is forever and I knew the moment I had made love to you,
the passion and tormented teasing that started, only increased each day we were parted.

That thrill of your touch and feeling your presence, sent chills down my spine with lustful essence,
So although if we ever shall meet again continuing on as friends is your game,
don't think for one minute that I have forgot, I haven't I won't, I just will not!
If I have you and you get me, it's destined and meant to be,
 A tale of two women who just fell in love, perhaps it really was designed up above!
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #71 on: Jun 14, 2017, 08:38:28 PM »
New House!
Hey, there's a new house for scouse, coming soon much more room!
For me and my kids, the dog the cats too,
Plenty to see and so much to do!

A fresh start, again, same old same,
But hey! Who knows, who I'll meet, fall in love again?
So yes, I am moving, further down deep, near more shops, near more sheep! :D
 So much more shops and bars, outside them posh cars,
So really I should be content as long as I can pay my rent,

So am I?

Well I don't know, without you to ask
''Should I go?''

I'm a bit troubled, concerned for this move, I know I'm trying to prove,
I can move on, start again forget the broken promises,
getting over the pain,
Who am I kiddin' it's still the same... :-\

Wherever I go, whoever I'm with, whenever I remember a lover's tiff',
I think of you, of me, of how it it used to be,
Still praying, still saying,
''You know I love you, I know you love me, so why, just WHY, can't it be!?
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #72 on: Jul 12, 2017, 11:49:03 PM »
In Other Words...
I am scared you won't turn up, I'm scared you will,
I'm afraid I won't know what to say, or do, or be,
I'm scared you will.

I'm nervous of the fact you know more, that I don't, that you will, I won't, know what to do when again I meet you, but you will.

I'm hesitating even now to work out the where and the how, not knowing how to dress or look, how I am supposed to look,
But you will!
 I worry about this every day, and night as in bed I lay,
Thinking back to how it was, loving you just because,
Wondering why you told that lie, I didn't but you did, and will still....no doubt!
In other words...
What's changed, if anything, have you, have I?
 Do we still love each other,
I will, will you?
In other words, I'm afraid it fails, I'm afraid it succeeds, I need to really truly believe,
But I guess nothing ventured nothing gained, right through my heart you took your aim.
You will again, you won't miss, I know your after 'Wedded bliss,
In other words...I need a kiss, I need you to not resist, I need you to persist, because we both know you know all that needs to be done and said,
 in all those other words to get me to bed!
Your in charge, as ever boss.
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #73 on: Jul 14, 2017, 02:54:32 AM »
'Hey Mate!'

Hey mate, you've been great, I hope it's not too late, to tell you you're  my mate!
It might not be what you wanted to hear, it might not be what you've longed to believe,
But it's all I've got, I know it's not a lot, but try as I have, you just ain't my gaff!
 You have been amazing, a true buddy to me, sometimes I have considered just what could be?

But I guess we both know and realise deep down, perhaps with a smile or sometimes a frown,
Compatibility, trust or desire, doesn't always lead to conspire,
For or against a pretence of feeling, we both know we're still just 'healing'!

And in that such process we found one another, not friends, not lovers, just sister and brother!

So, 'hey mate, if I don't get another chance to say, you have been  great, for always, tomorrow, today!

A 'real friend's through pain and sorrow,
Letting me in, letting me borrow, I've been a pain in the arse, a wrinkle on your borrowed brow, I know that's true, I realise now.

How smart you are, such a tortured soul, if only I was the one to make you whole!

Maybe I helped in my own little way, chasing your pain away for a day,
I hope so, I hope despite all of the curt, some way, somehow, I minimised your hurt!

I love you, and will indeed miss you, my friend, my brother, my mate, till the end!
( For Neil. X)
My brother in arms. X
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Re: Today I wrote a poem
« Reply #74 on: Aug 01, 2017, 04:35:29 AM »
''Jack The Lad!''

Jack The Lad, you call me making me mad, sometimes smiling, sometimes sad.
'Jack The Lad, is that my name, to you, you associate it with a game?

Your name for me I know you have chosen, thawing your icicles heart so frozen,
So Jack the lad, you refer to me because to you it's all you see!

 There must have been so many lovers before, I bet you've stopped keeping score,
so many that from the start looked like a good bet,
but then they broke your heart, from which you can't forget!

So when I came into your existence, those experiences were still reminiscent,
and paint in hand upon your brush, you pushed trust aside, and just saw lust,
In my eyes not genuine feelings, just a 'fly by night' with dodgy dealings!
 The same as the rest, like all the others, best to keep us like 'sister and brothers.....

So 'Jack the Lad'' you have named me now, we're lost in translation, some way, somehow,
I'm just a player in your protective world, your allies surround you and enhance the pearls,
Of wisdom and truth for you all to believe, asserting that stance with superior ease!
'Sticking by each other comrades to the end, believing only you can trust your closest of friends.

A new comer like me simply cannot be entrusted, to your circle and secrets such confidence you've  mustered!

In each other's unhappiness and sorrow all suffered, never again shall you ever be flustered,
at the sight of a beauty, or a boy with good looks, no more taken or swallowing their hooks!

I guess minds were made up and decisions decided, never again would you be tricked or derided!
Sisters together, tough, cautious and free, no chance for anyone encroaching like me!
Giving labels and descriptions to all that would try, whether charmer or player, girl or a guy,
'A Jack the lad, a 'Trier', a lover or liar, here today, gone tomorrow, a waste of space, a bringer of sorrow!

Yes you had your labels and target descriptions, for all of your elaborate depictions!

But guess what was the mistake you would make, not trusting me and continuing to forsake,
the real love you felt for the truth from the start, I was never, nor ever have been a real tart,
I was then and am now a virgin in love, with an experienced madam I put up above,
from any that I knew or had ever met before, whether man, girl or woman, that walked through my door!

My heart that beat fast, my breath took a gasp, when you looked in my eyes, I saw no more lies, but the truth I had searched for the whole of my life, through pain, and heartbreak, the 'what if''s? and maybes, the 'perhaps' and the 'might', the loves and the likes!

There you stood right in front of me, I felt sure this was it, it just had to be!
So 'Jack the lad, the player you saw, was no longer, no more, willing to settle, to give in at last, forgetting, forgiving, all of his past!
But it was too late for him, he's left it too late, the hurt had set in, you had learned to hate.

Giving the names to all who would dare, to try to endeavour to break through your stare.
Or find a way to your heart through that tough fearsome projector, up front, with hope of little conjecture!
My name you decided with some careful thought, reflected my past conquests, or so you'd been taught,
by close 'friends and protector s of your fragile heart, so brittle and damaged, ego apart!

But Jack was not what you thought he had been, for what you had heard was not to be seen,
no 'player', no liar, no 'chancer' or trier, just a boy in love with a burning desire.

So call me any name you think is still fitting, reflect on twice shy when once you were bitten!
For a name I'm called a label that's given, will never reveal the true love that's hidden,
Deep down inside, covered only with pride, is a woman in love, with her love she must hide,
Not a man, not a toy, not a girl nor a boy, just someone who wants her lover to come back,
just a woman you have seen fit to call 'Jack'!. X



 



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